So Confused

I try to be everything for everyone. I am so Confused on who I am suppose to be. Everything I try to be seems so wrong to everyone. I fight back the anger the tears. If there was one wish it would be to know what everyone wants from me. I know that i am only human. I don't know who i am suppose to be.

Will you love me if I show you the pain inside of me probably not.  Look at me you see happy deep down I am Drowning in a sea of Confusion and pain. I just don't know where to turn.

I am lost and looking for direction I just don't know who I am suppose to be or what I am suppose to be. I am holding on to the hope that one day I will find who I am suppose to be and I will be loved for who I am

God Help throught the Journey Help me find the answers to The Life I want to lead and the person I am suppose to be.

And In hopes of Being Loved But I don't feel that way anymore. Maybe one day i will find what I am looking for maybe i will be on this journey forever.

matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 7, 2011

I agree with jollydevittaroger. Simply put, pleasing everyone is impossible, focus on yourself and try not to dwell on what others think. You are who you are, and if they can't accept that, they need to adapt their mindset as they're the ones with the issues

I know exactly how you feel.

In all honesty, **** what everyone wants. The only person who should care about who you are is YOU. don't be something everyone wants you to be; be who YOU want to be. It is easier to say than do because of how everyone else will react, but you cannot live for them. They will not change to suit your needs or wants; don't' do the same for them. They're no that for your child. Children are always an exception to the rule.