Identity Crisis

I feel as though I don't know who I am anymore. Ever since struggling through an episode of depression I feel as though the person I used to be is quite clearly dead and gone forever. No amount of anti depressants is going to bring him back. I've been on anti depressants for several months and feel as though it isn't real. It's not the real me, just the anti depressants giving an illusion to people of what I should be. I think the real me that I've become is a horrible person and the drugs just keep it suppressed. Now that I'm finally off anti depressants and forced to cope alone, without the aid of mind altering drugs, I look inside myself and not know who or what I am anymore. Who I was while I was on anti depressants wasn't real, just nothing more than a drug induced illusion, a shadow of what I should be. I can't be who I was. He's not coming back. I feel so lost.
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26-30
1 Response May 21, 2012

Don't let yourself be lost. I know how hard it can be sometimes. I used to think my life was pointless. That I would be better off dead. But don't think like that. Things can change so easily. Something great could happen to you any day now. Sometimes you have to wait for the good things in life, but trust me, it's worth it.