Why don't people understand that I am who I am. Yes I'm socially awkward. Yes I'm shy. Yes I'm crazy, insecure and confused. But I am still me. No one seems to understand me or even want to try. I've been so depressed for the last month due to the fact that I feel as if no one cares. I hate it when my therapists says that everyone loves me. If that's the case then why do I never get even a single, simple HELLO? I post fake pictures of myself because I'm so insecure. I've been abused in the past and I'm still being abused by the same d**n people day in and day out. People say they love me but I find that bulls**t. I can't find love, true love, anywhere. I've looked in front of me, beside me, EVERYWHERE. I cut, I cry at night and wonder why I'm still here. I wonder if the reason is because I will find my purpose in life. But I highly doubt it. It feels as if whatever God that's up there is laughing at my existence. Pointing a finger and saying, "look at her try to find true love. She should know that she'll never be loved...by ANYONE, EVER." So someone please save me from the world and myself. Someone show me love and what it really is. Show me. Or I will not be here by tomorrow.
ScarletWilliams ScarletWilliams
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 23, 2014

Love dose not work like that, and men don't like needy women...
Learn to be true to yourself, get your head sorted out, and you will find things will drop into place, now is the time to grow up, people get board with the melodramatics , sorry but it true...