I Don't Know The Right Answer Anymore

My boyfriend and I have been together for close to 2 years and its been hell. We have a 6 month old daughter together and I just can't seem to figure out what to do. I am a recovering Meth addict and he keeps using and trying to hide it but I can always tell and its very difficult for me to be around him and deal with my own struggle against my addiction. We've fought about this more times than I can tell you and he always says he'll stop but never lasts longer than a couple of weeks. He talks to his ex girlfriends and tries to hide it, he goes on sex sites where you can hook up with people for random sex but swears he's never cheated on me, he blows his money on crap and leaves me to deal with the bills when he makes more than twice what i do. He is emotionally abusive and has been physically abusive, I even ended up in a battered women's shelter when I was pregnant. Now I know you're thinking leave him duh but its not that simple. Our daughter loves him and he's told me if we're not together he won't see her. And after everything that's happened there's no one left that will help me. I never have enough money to get my own place and I'm scared to be alone. I feel weak just saying that but its true. I just need some insight and maybe a couple suggestions. I'm not a stupid person so I can't figure out why I feel so paralyzed when I try to make a move.
jld3611 jld3611
26-30, F
May 10, 2012