Dating Woes

There are days that I don't know why I even try.  I think I'm an alright kind of guy, I certainly have my problems, but I'm trying to fix what I can.  I'm going through the healing process of an exceedingly difficult break up, and looking to start over in the whole relationship process.  Now for those of you that "know" me, you know I have some particular quirks, let's say, which I can't imagine are going to be helpful at all in finding a new girlfriend.  I have never felt good looking, which most people find hard to believe, but I've always had self-image issues, stemming from being the fat kid in grade school, not that it's changed all that much since.  I just don't think I'll ever find that special someone in my life.  It's not that I don't think I'll be lonely for the rest of my life, it's just that my idea of the "perfect girl" doesn't seem to be an attainable goal.  I'm not looking for a 10, but I don't know... I doubt anyone would come close to fitting the ideal.  Maybe I'm too picky, but if I'm going to spend the rest of my life with someone, I want them to be someone that'll truly make me happy, and some days I think that won't happen, or that I don't deserve it.  I don't think I'm asking for much, just a sweet girl, who's a little shorter than myself, is cute, finds a lot of the same things I do interesting, and happens to not mind, or dare I dream even enjoys, my particular kink or two.  I guess I just get discouraged every time I see someone that I'm attracted to... I have a hard time approaching girls, and if I think they're even remotely interested in me, I just think of what's going to happen if they ever find out about the real me... Trust me, it's not an easy way to go through life...

MasterShake25 MasterShake25
Jun 26, 2009