I Panic

I hate it when people raise their voices.  Obviously, it upsets me more if their raised voices are aimed at me, but I feel equally as uncomfortable when people near me are being shouted at.  It makes me start to panic and then I'll usually just cry.  This is part of the reason I have such trouble standing up for myself.  As soon as someone starts to shout, I just burst into tears and run away.  It's even worse when two people have a slagging match.  This really does suck the fun out of the room, and leaves me feeling depressed for hours afterward.


I think this all harks back to my childhood.  My mother was a very strict and angry person.  She rarely hit us as kids, but she always shouted.  Depending on her mood, even a spilled drink or broken plate could result in a good long shouting session.  Therefore, now I get nervous if people start to raise their voices.

Ryuuzaki Ryuuzaki
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 2, 2009

Thank you, Ryuuzaki... conflict is a crap thing that some people just feel they have to get in on...

awww, :( your story is almost like mine, but in my childhood and..still my parents fight with each other and it scares me, they fight in the phone, although they say, "I'm never gonna talk to you again!", but they usually talk after that, but not in a friendlly way, and whenever people fight, I get so sad that I shout louder and say, "STOP IT, PLEASE!" And then they say, "What's wrong, we always shout like this, we are used to it, we are like teasing each other." And then they think that I don't have sense of humor, I do, but it just reminds me with my parents, and I get sad, but anyway enough of me, and I wanted to say that you don't have to include yourself in the arguments, just mind your own busniness and let them fight, it's their problems who cares? ;)