The Dreaded Day

I start dreading my birthday about two weeks before it arrives, when every now and then you hear someone mention it, or ask "so what do you want for your birthday?"
I try to spend my birthdays as alone as possible. Most of my friends and family have come to accept this, but they don't understand it though.
The thing is, I hate being the center of attention. I hate people making a fuss over me. It even annoys me when people wish me a happy birthday, but I guess there's no getting around that. I managed to hide my birthday from the people at work this year, but they found out when it is afterwards, so next year they won't miss it...they even have it posted on the wall!
I have learned to escape when my birthday comes around, but you still get bothered by family and friends who phone you one after the other, and I just wanna scream at them "!#@% off! Just leave me alone!"
I haven't had a birthday party in about 12 years, and I don't think I ever will again...worse than that would be a surprise birthday party. OMG, I can't even imagine that!
If I could have one birthday wish come true, it would be to never have another birthday again!
TCat TCat
26-30, M
3 Responses Aug 2, 2007

hmmm schizoid personality disorder...what does it have to do with not wanting to celebrate your b-day..if I may ask? My b-day is in 2 days... i just want it to be over... maybe I'll sleep over it. It's just so depressing. I agree with everything you said... I hate people asking me what i want...or what i want to do... I rather spend it alone too. I hate getting b-day cards and phone calls from family/friends/lovers.... I really wish no one would make a fuss over it. I can't wait till it's over with... but I will look into what your saying about the disorder.... I have always felt i have a sort of personality disorder...but it's more self diagnosed...because no one knows me like i know myself... I don't feel like a doctor would get it right anyways.

As much as I hate revealing that awful date, I guess it can't do any harm. It's 18/05/1980. I can't see any connection between the two dates...but I have recently discovered that I have something called Schizoid personality disorder...sounds worse than it actually is. It's a very rare condition, but read up on it, maybe u have it too :/

hey, I'm just like you! Do you mind telling me ur birthdate? Wonder wheather is there a link. Mine is 14/09/1973.