I have been battling with many issues including anorexia/bulimia for many years. I can't stop, & I don't want to. But sometimes I wish I could act a little more normal about it so people wouldn't notice. But I can't eat in front of people, even if I'm hungry and want to eat, it has to be alone. I feel awkward, watched, uncomfortable, and just extremely disgusting. It seems as if the person I'm eating with is gonna say something nasty towards me or think something bad. Food is nothing to me except either addiction or poison.