Can't Eat Infront of Anyone

I Just can't, dunno why not I think that I just feel so greedy if I do and then just feel even worse than I already feel about myself!  It's like a fear!!! then wen I have to sit with friends and there all eating Im just left with my water lol ! I dont mind though, Im happier that way x

SekritObsession SekritObsession
18-21, F
2 Responses May 14, 2009

At one time I was miss fit and trim and I used to look at fat people eating and I'd say they shouldn't eat in public. Then as I got older and left the military and was told that I had a terminal illness I didn't care about my life anymore and I became one of the fat people that I used to ridicule. One day I was eating out and I saw a woman look at me and frown with disgust and shake her head and it struck me hard and from that moment on I would not eat in public. It took years for me to get over that hurt and I've lost considerable weight now but even if I were still that fat I would eat where ever I wanted to because I'm not as wrapped up in people's opinion as I was then and having walked in the shoes of the stigma of being a fat person I know now how closed minded and ridiculous I was back when I was young and short sided.

I don't like eating in front of people, either. So I wait 'til they go to the crapper and I clean their plates while they're gone.