GrossI don't like eating in front of other people because I am afraid that they are staring at me & wondering why in the hell I am eating in the first place. I just "know" they are wondering, "Why is that girl eating?! She is too fat to be eating anything. She should just starve herself & hang out on the treadmill."
So, I'll end up sneak-eating. Or I'll purge if I'm in a place I can. Purging doesn't help my weight but it (in my mind) punishes me for eating in the first place. (I've already discussed this in the bulimia experience.)
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