I have nightmares. Horrible nightmares. They're extremely realistic and I don't know what to do about them. I think it's some form of PTSD. Someone said to me that it is probably that. But it's really complicated now. When I've figured it out I'll be able to tell you a bit more about it. But I don't want to say something and then find out that that isn't true.

What I do know though, is that I hate to sleep. Because I never know if I'll have a nighmare or not. If they weren't so vivid, I wouldn't be as scared. But, god. They feel so real. But we all have to sleep. So I sleep. Some days I sleep without problems and fall asleep like normal. But some days I can't sleep well because I'm scared or worried before going to sleep and then dream nightmares when I fall asleep.

I can't really focus when I've had a bad night. But I cover it up with some bullsh*t excuse. It has worked this far. But I won't be able to do this forever. So I guess I'll have to go to therapy again. I just feel like, since they've become pretty rare, it's not really a problem. So I'd be wasting time going to therapy or treating it. Everyone has nightmares after all.
bluecupcakes bluecupcakes
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 13, 2013

Depends on how potrusive they are really?.My ex bird used to dread going to sleep because of how often she would have a nightmare,and how vivid they were.