Humanity Is Extremely Disappointing

It has taken me a very long time to actually SEE reality....I walked around with rose colored glasses on for most of my life, assuming that most human beings were basically kind, caring people.  It has taken me 57 years of living and the death of my husband to wake up and see that I had it all wrong.  My assumption was quite the opposite of reality, which is that MOST people are egomaniacs who are interested only in THEIR own stories, likes, dislikes, and what there is to gain in any given situation for themselves.  Most people COULDN'T CARE LESS about the pain another person is enduring.  Truly kind, compassionate people are very rare in this world.  It is so sad to learn that 90% of humanity is selfish and disappointing beyond words.   
natasha539 natasha539
56-60
7 Responses Jul 24, 2010

Trust me, I know. I lost my faith in humanity before I even got into high school.
People really suck. And I hate a good majority of them for it.
They're egotistical, controlling, loose-minded, and overall just plain stupid.
Not only is having faith in humanity the more stupid side of it. Nobody truly cares about anyone or anything, EXCEPT for themselves and their own gain in life. They leave everyone else in the dust like they're nothing and expects them to survive off of what they have left. It next to never works if they don't have someone else to help lean on them.
Hell, the most considerate thing anyone HAS done for me (other than family, of course) is just holding me while losing my mind. Did it help? Hell yes it did. But the help only lasted a month before they dropped me because of a stupid rumor that they decided to believe over my own words. Inconsiderate and stupid, I'd say.
Natasha, I'm glad you see the world as it truly is. Now, what we need to do is get everyone else to see it. But that's the biggest problem. Nobody listens! So fight the good fight (Three Dog, Fallout 3) and try to help everyone understand.

yesterday the wisest man
holding a lit lantern
in daylight
was searching around town saying
i am tired of
all these beasts and brutes
i seek
a true human
we have all looked
for one but
no one could be found
they said
yes he replied
but my search is
for the one
who cannot be found
~Rumi

I knew that before I hit 25 years old. I'm now 40.

I spend most of my time alone nowadays. Taking a walk in the forests, travelling, practising martial arts and mediation.

I pretty much agree and I'm not even 30. But don't you miss wearing those rose colored glasses? I was happier when I saw the best in people. I've gone through a very difficult time, and realized who my true friends were. In fact, who my true "family" is. I really wanted certain members of my family to be there for me, calling me and emailing, checking up on me as I waited for doctors to tell what was going to happen. Sadly, most people let me down. And now I'm left wondering: Did I expect too much? What do you think?

Hi Natasha. I just want to say that, even though I have not lived as much or met as many people, I can tell you that you Can connect to the kindest people, you can find lots of them. I believe the more you focus on how disappointing humanity is, the more evidence you will see of it. One way of being kind to yourself, is trusting that there Are nice people who care, and you can still meet them. My grandmother is 74 years old. She decided to go to high school for adults, since she never completed it. And this way she has met a really nice girl who has been helping her so much. I met my boyfriend online, and I am still amazed of how amazing he is, and I just met him on the internet! Allow life to surprise you once more!

Its true Natasha,people are mostly ignorant bigots who think nothing of lying and deceiving others in order to get what they want.As a gang stalked/community mobbed individual I cannot believe how many of all ages and walks of life are prepared to go along with an evil agenda which leaves the victims no chance of ridding themselves of the illegal and immoral actions they actively pursue with malicious glee.They are so decadent they even consider themselves as doing the right thing,or have no concern whether it is wrong,just enjoying seeing the effect their bullying and cowardly actions have in robbing a fellow human being of any normal life and how they are left isolated,easier for them to carry on slowly killing,menttally and in some cases physically as well.The consolation for any in this predicament is its better to be a victim than a stalker.

I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. I do think that it is often a dog-eat-dog world these days. A lot of people only think of their own wants, needs, opinions, and agenda, and don't seem to be aware of anyone else's situation. Having experienced this type of treatment, I'm sure you will try to be a better person than the majority of people, and make a positive difference in the world. Again, I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. I hope you can find strength and peace during this difficult time. Take care of yourself.