I Don't Know Why

I really don't know why I don't like myself, but on a daily basis, my interactions with people prove that I don't.  I won't get close to people.  I won't do social things.  I'm consistantly doubting everything I like and feel.  I think it's time I start to get in touch with the fact that I just don't like myself.  Even if other people like me when I talk to them, it doesn't matter.  I don't.  It hurts to see people who are comfortable with who they are enjoying their interactions with others who are comfortable with who they are.  They're happy.  I can only pretend so much that I'm okay with things.  Then that mask just falls apart.  Love thyself?  Someday, I hope so.

soulwhisperer soulwhisperer
26-30, M
4 Responses Nov 19, 2009

Is there something you want to talk about philip? I'd be glad to listen.

Well I hate myself but I know why unlike you

I don't, but these are irrational thoughts and irrational thoughts don't take reality into account. Whatever gives them power they feed into. The first step to irradicating them is being aware that they're there.

I hope you are able to love yourself, too. And how do you know they're really happy? Maybe they're just pretending, too.