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I Don't Like September Any More

She'll Celebrate In Heaven

By: sweetnightmare
Written on September 19th, 2008

Next Thursday will be my little girls first birthday. We won't have a party that all of our friends and family will come to celebrate. Instead I will go to the cemetery to lay flowers and bring a balloon that says "Happy 1st Birthday". We will bring a little cake to "celebrate" and sing her the songs that remind us of her.

My heart is so broken. I miss her so much. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her. I was dreading to face September and every September in the future. It brings us heart break. I can't help but relive all those days leading up to the moment of her passing, and all the days that followed. I keep reliving last year.

I just want to hold her one more time.

 

By: sweetnightmare
Age: 26-30 , Female
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6 responses
  • dare2love
    dare2love

    So sorry for your loss. Our hearts will always remember those we love, and they will live on in our memories until we meet them again in heaven. hugs to you

    Mar 17, 2011
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  • msbhavin
    msbhavin

    Being blessed by such an angel is a gift you now hold in your heart forever. My thoughts and prays are with and you and yours.

    Oct 16, 2008
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  • gwyrddair
    gwyrddair

    I've had several late miscarriages but never what you've gone through ...and every 5th Nov, I "lump them all together" and grieve... (cos that is the date I remember the most) Here in the UK, it is bonfire night, fireworks and celebrations... that's not easy ~~ I feel for you and I hope very much you will survive this with your sanity intact xxx



    PS Just a thought, I haven't checked any of your stories (yet) but have you written about her?

    Sep 20, 2008
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  • geminis
    geminis

    I READ YOUR STORY MADE ME CRIED BUT JUST PRAY TO GOD AND ALSO HE IS GOING TO REWARD YOU WITH MORE KIDS I ALWAYS WILL PRAY FOR YOU. GOD BLESS YOU

    Sep 19, 2008
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  • datura
    datura

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and hoping that time will bring you some measure of peace as it has for me.

    Sep 19, 2008
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  • lizlawgirl
    lizlawgirl

    I don't know how to respond my darling as there are no words to describe this situation. In this life the loss of a child is so out of the natural order we somehow expect that as parents we will go first. I cant pretend to offer any words of wisdom, I'll leave that to better minds that mine but I'm sending lots of love for you and your little girl, may god bless you allxxx

    Sep 19, 2008
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