Next Thursday will be my little girls first birthday. We won't have a party that all of our friends and family will come to celebrate. Instead I will go to the cemetery to lay flowers and bring a balloon that says "Happy 1st Birthday". We will bring a little cake to "celebrate" and sing her the songs that remind us of her.
My heart is so broken. I miss her so much. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her. I was dreading to face September and every September in the future. It brings us heart break. I can't help but relive all those days leading up to the moment of her passing, and all the days that followed. I keep reliving last year.
I just want to hold her one more time.