I Hate Sleeping Alone Too!
It took me forever to remember even how to sleep in a bed, I slept on the sofa for so long, it didn't feel like I was sleeping alone then. The back of the sofa at least gave the illusion of there being someone with me. Then I bought a bed. I knew that someday I would meet someone and we could sleep together, but I couldn't sleep in my bed! It took me about a good year and a half to finally relearn how to. I didn't try every night. Sometimes I wouldn't do it for weeks at a time. but I finally did it! I can sleep in my bed again, but now I'm back to the same problem, I hate being alone in my bed. So now I have lots and lots of pillows taking up one side of the bed. At least in the middle of the night when I'm still groggy, I can just snuggle up next to it, and pretend it's my love.
Even when my boys crawl into bed with me, it's nice, but still not the same as a grown up.