I hate sleeping alone. I don't want to sleep with just anyone next to me though. What I long for is my soulmate. I long to lay in the dark, talking softly to him about all things, big and small, until one of us whispers "I'm falling asleep."
I long to have someone reach for me in the middle of the night, and pull me closer just to feel my warmth, my touch. I long to be able to reach out and touch him in the middle of the night. Whether it is out of a need for comfort, a need for closeness, or a simple desire.
I long to wake up before the alarm, and watch this incredible man who has chosen to share his life with me sleep. To see the shadows fall across his face, to watch a smile come and go as he dreams, to hear the easy rhythm of his breathing.
I long to wake up and find him watching me, with desire, need...love.
I hate sleeping alone. I hate sleeping with the wrong person. I think my need is pretty simple, so why is it so hard to find?