Another Not So Different Version Of The Story

I've always been extremely introverted. I'm not nearly as much now as I used to be when I was younger, or little, mainly because I've been forced to have to deal with more social situations through school, college, and work settings. I'm still never entirely comfortable in any social setting, but I've learned how to more or less fake it to a certain extent. However, I still have yet to be able to come to terms with the issue of touching. Nothing (that I'm aware of at least) happened to be when I was younger to cause this, but I don't like to be touched. I can deal with it if it happens, but I don't go out of my way at all to touch other people or hug them or any of that. There are really only two people that I will actually willingly hug on my own--my parents. Beyond that, there are a few people (three or four and that's it) that I can usually deal with if they hug me without having too much issue with it, but other than that, that's all there is. I can do the handshake thing fine without issue, and my last two jobs were actually in the direct care field, where I worked with young kids so I had to be able to deal with helping them up, carting them around, etc, but it definitely makes a personal/social life difficult if not impossible. There are other issues that I bring to the table beyond the touching issue, so I realize it isn't the only reason why I've never dated (nope, seriously, I haven't), but it definitely seems to be part of the reason. I don't feel...slighted by not liking people touch me, or not wanting to touch other people. Not usually at least. Normally it doesn't cross my mind and I'm not overtly aware that I deal with the issue, but a friend recently pointed out to me that a relationship would require talking a good bit to a person (I don't talk much either), and would eventually require touching. I laughed, but pointed out it was true. I was probably at a loss since not knowing why I don't like to touch people makes it rather difficult to even work past that. Anyway, I've started pondering the thought/idea/issue of touching the last couple of days and found this group and thought I'd throw this out there.

cloudspoken cloudspoken
26-30, F
Feb 8, 2010