I Also Just Don't...

It's not so much I don't LIKE to show emotions, it's just that I don't. My mom and both my sisters are emotionally unstable. They can't keep them in check. I've learned to never show my emotions, except for the safe ones. I rarely even cry, except when it gets to be too much, and even then I have to drink to let it out. People think I am cold and unfeeling, and its not true. I have empathy in spades, but I can't talk about feelings with people. I think that is why I feel so uncomfortable around my own gender. I keep my face a mask, and have learned self control. I guiltily feel pride when someone else breaks down but I don't. The couple of occasions I have cried in front of or yelled at another person I can't evem face them, I'm so ashamed. It really drives me nuts, but I honestly cannot show bad emotions.

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18-21, F
Mar 6, 2009