I Don't Like This "...

I don't like this "where I am" in many ways. Psychologically seen I don't like that I didn't change what I wanted to change. My psychiatrist was proud of me becuase I've become better in a lot of areas and I'm proud too cause there has something in my life changed of which I'm very proud. But still the biggest of all problems is existing. And it's always coming back to me.

I don't like where I am in the way that I don't know what to do with my future. I'm going to fail my a-levels and have no clue what to do afterwards. And even if I pass them (what everyone wants to make me believe) I don't know what to do afterwards.

And last I don't like where I love. It's a small village will almost only stupid people living in it. All my friends are living somewhere else. I have no possibility to get out myself except by busses and they only drive till 7 pm. You know what that means. So I'm basically stuck here and the only good thing I got to know here is a busdriver with whom I fell in love. The rest is just tears.

GothGrrrl GothGrrrl
18-21, F
Apr 16, 2007