Completely Miserable...

I have been married to my husband for nearly 8 years. We have been together 10. We didn't live together before we were married, so I had no idea he was an alcoholic. He did his drinking after I went home. I learned to deal with it by drinking myself. I stopped when I became pregnant with our son. He did not. I begged and begged him to quit to no avail. He finally stopped for a while "for his health". Despite saying this, he said it was my fault he couldn't drink and threatened divorce and I gave me no emotional support when I miscarried our second child.
He eventually went back to drinking, after I was pregnant again. I gave birth to our daughter a few months ago. I got tired of his drinking (finally) and for the sake of our kids, told him I was leaving to stay with my Mom for a week to get away and think about things. He freaked out, said he'd kill himself, that I was trying to be sneaky and was really filing for divorce. He told me I was being selfish. Me? Really? I bought it anyway and stayed. He stopped drinking for the most part, and he seems to really be trying to do right. However, I think it may be too little, too late. I don't like being around him, I dread having to have sex with him, and I hate talking to him. I just want to go but for some reason I can't. What's wrong with me?
GracieGracie GracieGracie
1 Response May 11, 2012

On reading your story I have found it to be similar to my situation. There is nothing wrong with you! You are just on a different path to him. how did the time away at your mothers go? hope you had time to think and work out what is best for you and your children.