I Don'T Think I Love My Husband Anymore

I care for him, but I don't feel that draw to him anymore. Marriage counseling was a joke to him and it bothered me he didn't care to go. He says he loves me and gets mad when I try to tell him how I feel. My marriage feels like a Heathcliff and Catherine relationship. Except there isn't any kind of passion. It's not like I hate him, but I don't really want him or need him. He has been drinking a lot too, and I feel like that is a big factor in this situation. He just becomes mean and bitter. I feel like I have to babysit him. When he isn't being mean, he is so obnoxious and foolish. One night at a friend's house, she is married and our husband's are friends but "G" was not home, he called her "*******" right in front of me. The sentence used was "C'mon *******, just do it already." We were drinking and he was talking about taking a shot. I confronted him about this and he apologized and said he doesn't remember saying it. I believe that because he often doesn't remember after a night of heavy drinking. He doesn't drink everyday, mostly on the weekends, but when he does I hate it. He doesn't treat me like I'm a wife or the mother of one of his children. He treats me like a maid and a babysitter- without pay. He shows favoritism to his other daughter and won't play with our child very often. He walks all over me while I have to walk on eggshells. I know it is bad to speak ill of a marriage and many will think "Instead of naming all the bad in your relationship, try looking at everything that is going right, all that is good." The truth is, there isn't anything good left for us.