I Don't Love My Perfect Husband
I got married at the age of 20, to a nice guy, who I am not in love with and never really was. I don't have one logical explanation for why I did especially since I knew he wasn't right for me, but he wouldn't let up and eventually I agreed, thinking he'd realize this isn't working and we'd forget the whole thing. It's been almost 5 years, and I don't love him anymore than I did then, in fact I love him less. I do wish him no ill and would love to know he's really happy, but I can't live with him. I'm been making the same cry for all of our marriage and his desire to be perfect so that it would work is acting on my nerves. Its making me feel terribly guilty, and miserable, I'm continuously frustrated and suicidal. What's worst everyone acts as though I should be perfectly happy because he's a great guy- and great guys don't exist, so if I let this one go, I'd be single and miserable for the rest of my life. I m Lucky we don't have Kids,but the pain is just to much for me to take.