So Confused...My husband and I were married when I was 21 and he was 34. We knew eachother about 2 years, but had only been dating for 7 months. We eloped. Shortly after, my mom, who was my best friend, passed away. He was there for me, and was very supportive. We tried for a while to have a baby, and did about 2 years ago. We love her dearly but after she was born, we started growing apart. We never had a great physical attraction but that was becoming more and more of an issue and we were both changing in other ways.
About a year ago, we separated. He was devastated. I started dating my best friend, and I felt what it was like to really love someone. I had never felt that way about my husband. We even made plans to move and my husband and I were moving towards divorce. About 2 months ago, my boyfriend left me after finding out some things about my past and I was completely heartbroken.
After the break up, my knee jerk reaction was to go back to my husband, so I did. He is being amazing, we are seeing a counselor to make sure things go well, and my daughter is very happy. However, I still don't feel the love I feel I should for my husband. I'm completely lost, with very few people to turn to, and I just want that love back in my life more than anything.
ElleBelle13 26-30, F 1 Response 1 Jul 18, 2012