I Love Him, But I'm Not In Love With Him
I married my husband of almost 5 years now for the sake of my baby daughter back then. Her father and I got separated back in 2003 (2 months after she was born). I realized she couldn't grow up in an environment were there was cheating, arguing, and mistreatment. I decided to divorce her father...as we got separated my current husband found out (he and I knew each other one year before my separation with my ex) and in a sense too advantage of my weakness, depression, sadness. He stayed with me all the way thru, and grew to love my daughter. They have a great father-daughter relationship. We got married as soon as my divorce was final. We have a 2 year-old girl. My ex-husband now would like to be involved in my oldest daughter's life. When I spoke to my ex-husband I realized how much we both get along and we could have a nice conversation. I feel, I still have feelings towards my ex-husband. I see at my current husband more like a brother. I was not in love with him when I married him. I married him for my daughter. I gave him a child of his own blod because he wanted one. I don't want to sound selfish, but I feel I've done everything for a lot of people. Now I feel have to do things for myself.......I just want to be alone.