I don't know why you suddenly disliked me, and basically don't care. But you have been becoming very poisonous of late my dear. Just because you are hurting does not mean you have to strike out at everyone else- that is a very selfish attitude, one you claimed not to have.
And I do not have an ego thinking that you will read this, I know that you will read this as you have this incessant need within you to read everything as if it is aimed at you so you can play victim. Well here you go- one that is actually about you.