My First Love

My first love was in 7th grade. I saw this handsome guy on facebook and decided to add him. When I added him a couple of days later he told me I was Gorgeous. I loved the way he acted and we got to know eachother. & I actually found out he lived right down the street from me. The first time I saw him was amazing. His eyes were glowing light brown in the Sun. We had dates and kissed eachother at the movies. We had a great time! Ook . I didnt hear from him in a while. One random day while I'm sick , I walk in my sister room and she is on the phone with him. I walk away but still sad. He asked to speak to me and I sed Hello , Im busy I'll ttyl! I was uspet. I didnt even wana talk and my voice was very ugly from my cold. Then while my sister sleep I notcies its a text message from him. I acted like I was her to see their usuall convos. I notcied he ditched the convo about me and asked her to send him some sexy pictures of her. I didnt reply and deleted all the messages. I confronted him and told him and asked him why! I am still in contact with him but Got Damn , my heart sank like the Titanic. I spent countless hours thinking about him and until this day I still do. You ever been in love where everything and all you can think about is that person? I really want to tell him whats wrong because he still askes why we got messed up but I'm a freakn fool for him! My mama will see me sad or thinking and automatically know it is about him. I don't know if I need to completely get him out my life or fix it back up. 3.