Swept Under The Rug: The Confessions Of A Loner.
I've pretty much been a lone wolf all of my life. Even when I had friends to hang out with I still preferred to be alone. Now that I'm older my outlook on life has changed and I'm starting to realize how much of a freaking hermit I really am.
What's worse is that I don't drive and I live with my parents, which pretty much isolates me from social events. I'm in college right now so I don't have a lot of time to socialize, but I still want to have that part of college that seems so crucial to a lot of people.
I just want the college experience and to have fun every once and a while, but with virtually not friends to hang out with, it's impossible. Because of my current predicament I don't get out much at all and when I do it's so exhilarating.
My question is this, how do I make friends? I know there are many ways and self help books for this sort of thing, but none of them have helped me at all. When I try to talk to people it's like I don't exist sometimes or that I feel like I'm infringing on their time. I've been in a situation where I say something and then someone ignores me, which ****** me off!
Why do people do that? It's so rude! It gives one the impression that you don't care what that person has to say and that you don't have any respect for them either. I've tried to be more assertive, but it's hard when you're not used to being so.
All the friends that I've gotten close to have betrayed me in someway, which doesn't look good on my track record. I've tried to be a good friend, a good listener and have helped them numerous times in the past when either of them had a problem. Regardless of this, they still used me and then discarded me like yesterday's news.
I for one am sick and tired of being treated like this! I'm not as shy as I used to be, but I'm still not to the point where I'm confident with my social skills. How about you? Do you feel the same way? Am I the only one who's constantly being swept under the rug?