Some People Don't Have Enough Time

My first girlfriend was my best, and I loved her dearly. After she died from complications from diabetes, I made myself a promise that I would live and take chances. I wouldn't hold back, wouldn't insist on waiting for the right moment, because that moment might never come.

First and foremost on that list was sex. I was raised to wait until after marriage, but I made the conscious decision not to wait, never knowing if it was going to be an experience worth knowing.

My first experience wasn't anything special, and the girl I did it with wasn't anyone special to me. It was a moment of opportunity and nothing more. I didn't care and I still don't care. A few years after her, I did find someone who made sex something to enjoy.

I don't see your first time having sex as "losing your virginity." That feels like you're giving something up, and you're not. You're gaining a new experience, one you can either decide to treasure or regret.

There are too many other things in this world, in our lifetimes, that we will regret, and this shouldn't be one of them, no matter how unpleasant the first time is.
mononoaware mononoaware
26-30, M
Sep 16, 2012