When I Do Sleep That Is
I have been suffering with Insomnia for most of my adult life. I'm never able to sleep longer than 3.5-4 hours and that is usually broken sleep. I don't even want to think about what this could be doing to my health, goodness knows it sure plays with my mind. It's come to the point where I no longer try to fall back asleep but instead get up and do things as if it were my scheduled wake up time. I fear that I've become so used to this new schedule and behavior that I may forever be doomed to continue repeating this cycle. When I attempt to sleep I always have to use ear plugs, which hurt my ears and leave them sore for days. I've used headphones and downloaded some of the best sleep apps there are. I want to sleep like the rest of the world. I want to sleep at the same time as the rest of the world is sleeping! I want to snuggle in all cozy comfy and sleep late on the weekends. Is sleeping in not one of the best things about the weekend? I've tried everything and even the few things that did work temporarily no longer do as my body must have become used to it. I wish I could get used to sleeping a regular, steady 6-8 hours per night. So much for wishes right?