End Of The Line
I have been badly hurt by just about every friendship I have ever had. I know that love is always a risk, but to me, it is fast becoming a risk not worth taking. My dismal social life consists of my immediate family only. I have no friends whatsoever. I have made them at different places and times in my life, but I have never kept them. I don't have any of them now. Worst of all, I have had far too many people say that all I had to was to come to them anytime I needed them and that they would be there for me, and they never were. I quickly learned that the one thing I could always count on was that I have no one to count on. Those people eventually drifted away from me, and they never made an effort to reach out to me. I always had to reach out to them. A popular saying says that all you have to do to make friends is to make a little effort. Well, I have sold my soul trying everything I could possibly do to find, make and keep friends, and I have always failed. I have recently come to the conclusion that true love is never going to find me, and the best way I can protect myself from the inevitable pain involved in trying is to deliberately repel everyone around me. I cannot imagine why anyone would want anything more to do with me than they absolutely have to.