What Is There To Love? All They See Are My Flaws.
Out of all the people I have loved only one ever loved me back. I thought this MuSt mean that this is my soulmate because finally I met someone that loved me back. but now I just do not see the point of it all, of life or anything. I always thought a world without love is not a world worth living in and that is how I feel now, that there is no point of me living. I have no sense of self. I was never loved very much growing up, I have never maintained any deep friendships, so I have always found my happiness through loving others hoping that one day someone would love me. But now I realize there is just nothing to love. My parents are divorced and both very miserable people, I have no friends, no talents, I am overweight, and have no clue what to do for a career. Who would love that? It is no wonder that the only person that loved me changed there mind. I cant even love myself so how would anyone else. Most nights anymore I wish I did not wake up.