I Wish I Could Find Himi really wish i could find my one and only. but i feel like that will never happen. if only i could feel more comfortable in my own skin. i think my biggest insecurity is my gut. i am working on it. yesterday though i cheated on my diet and now i feel bad again. to me a good looking guy is not necessary, i want a smart, intelligent, admirable man. it would be a plus if he were hansome but it isn't my main concern. but for guys, well guys i believe are more shallow than girls. when a girl falls inlove she is mainly about feelings a guy is more possesive. more about looks or maybe i have just dated the wrong type of guys. i feel like there are no good guys out there.
i hope i am wrong. i really do. i want to be inlove and be loved back. i don't even remember what love feels like. sometimes i am afraid i will grow old and alone with maybe a dog to keep me company. i'm so lonely.
i'm gonna work out now, maybe i will feel more confident if i were inshape;)i just want to get toned and get rid of this gut.