Forever The Love-lorn And Skittish It Seems.Okay so I'm not going to bash myself. I have talents, some self-confidence, and lately I've made great strides in meeting new people and making new friends in college. I did have a boyfriend once but I messily ended it when I felt we were more like friends than I wanted (also I was jealous that he was closer with my two best friends than me but anyway...). I didn't know how to tell him that (maybe now I would be more straight-forward).
Thing is, I don't like going to sketchy frat parties where the guys say hello to girls just so they can grind with them (Not that that isn't sexy, it's just not sexy with drunk, horny, anonymous people), and the art of flirting is not in my portfolio of work. I have thoughts about guys, sure, and there have been some unrequited love scenarios that never made it past my neuron synapses but taking a step? Nope.
Especially now with my parents impending divorce of calm doom, love and relationships seem dangerous but also worth it. Even if it means changing a situation I've heard it said it's worth it for a chance to be loved. And I have dreamed for so long, not having the courage or know-how to do things (romantic, flirting, get-what-you-want-sort of things) that it almost seems like it will never happen.
Ideally I want a person (probably a guy) who is a friend and ultimately something more but people tell me that's not the way it works. Why not? I would never have the courage or gumption to get into that situation any other way.
So, forever the love-lorn and skittish it seems! Any advice?
mimimozealia 18-21, F 2 Responses 0 Feb 8, 2013