i have a great family, decent group of friends and an overall fun life. im witty, fairly smart and can make people laugh. ive dated but never let myself get too close to people. im not terrible to look at and i have a pretty face (if im able to say that without sounding conceited) but on the inside i am absolutely miserable. ive put on a lot of weight over the years and have destroyed my body. i now weigh practically 200 pounds and i know that even if i lose the weight my body will not be attractive. i just hate what i see and i cant stand what i did to myself. its a terrible feeling to be so young and already know im going to be alone forever. but how can i expect someone to fall in love with me when i look like this? im just hoping to find someone in a similar situation who can see past how i look but it doesnt seem likely.