I don't vent too often, when I do it is usually through music since I am not really good at writing to express but I am sad and feeling reflective today, feel the need to let these feelings out, I don't want them to build. Recently I, along with others who knew her suffered in a way, a loss. A truly wonderful person needs some time to reflect on life and concentrate on herself, figure out where and who she wants to be, to evolve. Of course this is understandable. She came to mean a lot to me, I think she will always mean a lot to me, she, maybe even I will never know how much. She had quite a few rough times in life, still suffers the after effects of them, if there was one wish I had it would be to free her and allow her to see the beauty she possesses in and out, I obviously cannot do that for her, that is something she must do on her own accord but I can continue to be here for her in her journey, to talk with her through the hard times, smile through the good, cry through the painful and laugh through the silliness. I truly do believe people come into your life for a reason. I don't know the reasons we were brought together but I am very glad it happened, I also don't know if she will always want me in her life but I sure do hope so, time will surely tell. No matter though, I will always hold her dear to me and wish her all the blessings life has to offer, she definitely made me grow as a person. I don't just click with most people right away, within hours we were talking like we knew each other a lifetime. I am trying my best not to email her and to give her the space she needs. She is truly a special woman who made me smile on a daily basis, I miss our interaction on here. I sincerely for lack of better words love her and I hope she knows this.