I Am Still Screaming, It's Just Louder In My Head, Then What You Hear.

Every now and then I feel like my walls are crumbling, falling down so quickly that I cant catch them. I have a flash flood of memories washing away any sanity I had left, I know my memories are my life, I need to learn from them, but how can you live and let go when you stopped living a long time ago. I don't understand how people can be so naive to the fact that people still hurt, just because I no longer scream for attention, doesnt mean I dont scream. So much has gone wrong in my life, so many things I couldnt control, couldnt fix, couldnt change. Everyone I have ever loved left, everyone leaves in the end. I would love to be able to breathe again, to live to feel alive. I would give anything to know what love is, what it feels like, how to recieve and give it. I was never given love, so how do I give it to someone? How can I feel love, when I have never felt it. How do you begin to heal when you feel safe in your insanity. How can I want change when this is all I have known? Struggles are apart of human existence I am well aware everyone feels pain in their lives, but what about us, the ones who feel nothing but pain, who have lost all other feelings. I want a grasp on reality, I need somewhere safe, someplace where there is will, where there is strength. Someplace where I can learn how to live again.
Shawnnas Shawnnas
22-25, F
2 Responses May 7, 2012

try now

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