Breathing

Seems like when it rains it pours. So I've mustered the courage to make it through my morning of meetings, only to be stabbed in the heart over and over for the past hours with a smile on my face.
Now I'm in my office with the blinds pulled crying like a girl. Over his indifference. Over the love missing in my life. Over the lack of respect I get at work now. Over finishing all my household projects. Over my children.

I think I'm finally broken. I think today was the straw on this camel's back.

I need to pull it together in 20 minutes. Not sure I can.
And no one knows about my anguish. No one in my life would help if they did. I am the strong one. I am the alpha. I have to fix it, pay for it, organize it, make the final decisions. Then they can all tear me apart. Inch by inch. Again.
sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
46-50, F
May 24, 2012