Bleeding

I just can't take the hurt anymore. This afternoon was another tragic one. I was disrespected. My heart got another knife it. By the end of it I was in tears.

It's not ok until I shed tears. That's got to happen, or else this person isn't ok with themselves. Got to break me to build themselves up. That's just how it is.

It's not a deranged boyfriend, or anything like. I learned my lesson on that long ago.

This's a tie that can never fully be broken. I've been in the process of trying to break it these past few months, but get the "i miss you" bs texts and all that. I ignore most, but a few times I've given in. Both times have ended the same.

I don't know what the problem is. I don't know why I have to be treated so heartlessly.

When the look on my face showed that the words that'd just been said hurt me, I was told "oh give me a break!", then a few minutes later it was "give it a rest!!!"

I know I'm not at fault. I know that it's a problem that they with themselves, not me, that makes them act cruel like that. Knowing that doesn't make the words hurt any less.
orchid00 orchid00
26-30, F
1 Response Jan 19, 2013

It's like you read my mind, and typed it all out. This is exactly how I feel, almost every detail. It's so hard to be treated so horribly by someone who once loved you, how can they look you in the eyes and not see the hurt you feel?