It's Sad

I can't trust anything at all. I trust complete strangers with simple tasks more than I trust those closest to me. I don't know why, but I can't trust a soul.

However, if i could trust people, I'd be heartbroken and such all the time, so I don't know what is worse?

sharpenom sharpenom
18-21, M
2 Responses Dec 30, 2009

You're totally right, and if I could, I probably would allow myself to trust people instead of what I have right now. <br />
I really like the whole pain comment because it is true, however weird and oxymoronic it seems.

Yes, being exposed emotionaly is certainly painful! But you know, at least you will feel alive! I spent most of my life avoiding any situation in which the opposite sex had any power over me emotionaly. I didn't want to feel that pain, the humiliation that accompanies rejection. But you know what, sometimes feeling pain reminds us that we are human! Transparency, putting yourself out there, being vulnerable to someone we love is risky, it can be devastating. Yet, living alone in fear of heartache is so much worse....