I Just Find It So Hard.

I've always been a likeable person to many and people have always told me how nice and sweet I am and whatever else. To be honest, I am nice but I feel like people see that and try an use it to their advantage. I used to be willing to help any and everyone... now I just DGAF.

When I was a child I was painfully shy and didn't start to really come out of my shell until I was about 16 and had to start at college.

After I hit 16, I would be willing to make new friends but, after encountering bitchiness in groups of females and petty gossiping, I'm become so weary of everyone and feel like everyone has an ulterior motive. This goes for both women and men.

It's gotten to the point where some people I used to talk to regularly may reach out to me via facebook or twitter and try and arrange for us to meet up because it's been a while since we've seen each other, but I'd just make up a lie about being busy and stay at home.

What's wrong with me? Have I grown so tired of humanity that I'd rather cut the bullcrap and keep myself to myself?

Seems that way. :(
Blueblack89 Blueblack89
22-25, F
1 Response Sep 22, 2012

Naah... You're okay. I do that too sometimes, tho I'm not too shy.

Ever heard the concept of being 'too nice'? You sound like the classic example. 'Too nice' people are, unfortunately, not admired but used. You must realize that you, only you, only you, only you are responsible for your well-being. You are allowed to let them push you around of course—but at what cost?

P.S. People are generally nice, but we just can't help but act like ******** at times. We don't mind if you do the same.

Hmmm. Maybe I am too nice to people. Noted.