I Am Not Strong Enough...

During the last few years, I've realized that something is wrong. You cannot get tired of a man after 2 months, can you? I mean, of course you can, but not every man! That's what is happening to me...I think that somewhere deep down in me I am scared of relationships. People started calling me "maneater" for all the men I broke up with. I don't think that I am doing it on purpose, but I am starting to wonder if I keep doing this, how am I gonna end up? ALONE?!?!? I don't wanna be alone but I guess I am doing this because I don't wanna get my heart broken ...I feel sorry for all the guys I have hurt because there were really special ones among them, good guys. I have a friend who told me once that maybe I need a man to break my heart so that I can understand what it is and stop doing it to other people. Is he right???? I am scared to death! On the top of that I think I am in love, and I am going to get my heart broken so now I am trying to escape from that guy, I don't want to see him, I don't want to talk to him...I am running as always...Moreover he has a girlfriend and apparently he likes her and I am just a friend. I don't know what to do next, usually when I start feeling something about someone I go and find another one to replace him with...and then I feel better...should I do the same this time?

ManEater ManEater
18-21, F
Feb 18, 2008