Cannot Be Bothered

Whilst I lust after guys, the idea of having a permanent person always there sort of freaks me out. I like knowing that I can do what I want when I want and without negotiation. The way I see it I have friends and as long as there are friends, I can have enough human company. I am also childfree so it's not like I need to hurry up and find a man to settle with and start a family. I had crushes twice in my life and they were no fun. Looking back I see that the whole thing was more about control than love.

 

I feel that there are other ways to find fulfillment in life and even if the other person loved me, that wouldn't complete my existence. I've had offers from men who were clearly interested in me and whilst they were very loving, they would have suffocated me and made me miserable. I'm just not a romantic type nor do I feel the urge to care for another human.  In the words of Depeche Mode, "love's not enough in itself." I am not at all unhappy being single and it annoys me when people come along and judge my life as "happy" or "unhappy" based on their own assumptions and without making an effort to get to know who I am.

 

Some people say that one day some man will come along and change my mind. I don't believe in "the one" and if I never fall in love then I don't care.  However, at this point in my life I reckon that if I want something to get in my way and always be there, I'd get myself a little dog or cat...at least I know I could never be angry and adorable faces and soft fur. =)

Cynanthrope Cynanthrope
26-30, F
1 Response Mar 2, 2010

Sadly Jeffrey, I'm no hot babe. Looking good takes both patience and half-decent genetics. I have neither.