What To Do?

my husband left 1.5 months ago after i learned about his affair he is now living with the other woman and believe it or not, I don't want a divorce. I have done all of the desperate things people do.. crying, begging you name it.. i am wondering why he hasn't served me with papers? does he not want to look like the bad guy or hurt my feelings? I am trying to give him space... I just don't know what to do.....

onnie1234 onnie1234
36-40, M
Feb 7, 2010