Finally, A Special New Years

I haven't not had a boyfriend for the past two years. If I don't have a boyfriend, I'm pursuing some guy. I've been chasing a guy for the past few months, and last night he and a bunch of friends came over to celebrate the new year. We stayed up all night just being goofy and laughing alot. I had more fun than I've had in a very long time. Even though he has a girlfriend, last night I didn't care, and I couldn't figure out why.

Finally I was cleaning up about an hour ago and realized that I didn't care last night that I couldn't have him wasn't because I didn't want him anymore, which is what I had thought, but because I don't want anyone. And I don't feel like I should want someone. I'm so tired of always having something holding me back from being myself. And when I'm single I have the best times of my life, with friends, lovers, and family.

It just seems right that I finally realize this on the new year. Hopefully, things will be better.

Tyler Tyler
1 Response Jan 1, 2007