Being Big Is Getting Annoying
Ok so I am 21 years old you would think that I am having a great old time being young and free but no, I just sit in the house all day because I don't want people looking at me funny I have never in my life had a boyfriend before, the closes that I ever came to having a boyfriend was on the Internet he was awesome and we were the same age 16, in the same grade and everything else, he was just to sexy and I was this fat person with low self esteem, I never showed him my real picture because I was ashamed of how I looked, so long story short I ended up falling in love with him and ended up hurting myself because I could never be with him so we broke up. I hate when people look pass me as if I am not even there, its like I could be walking with all my friends and a guy would walk up and look at everybody but me, I just end up walking away, so very sad. I never had my first kiss, never had a high school sweet heart I wanted one so badly though I really truly did want one, so when prom time came around everyone had a date and I had to lie about having one so pathetic, even now at 21 I still can't get a guy SUCKS. I am scared that I might get diabetes or something else, I want to be healthy and live a long, full, happy life.