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I Don't Want to Be Me Anymore

I Hate How Things Work Out...

By: rabbit29567
Written on August 9th, 2011
When I was 8 years old, I came home from school one day to my mother crying. I asked her "Whats wrong" and she told me that my favorite grandpa on my father's side had OD'd. It had always been difficult for me to stay in contact with my father because he left when I was young. By that time, I already had stepfather number 3! Anyways, a week later when I'm at my best friends slumber party, my stepmother dies. She was my hero, she was everything to me. She had a kid with my father and before she died I had promised to always look after my little sister and stepsister but they took them away. My father is a crackhead so he couldn't take care of them and so they took my sisters to a foster home to be adopted by my stepmother's parents. Its been 7 years since I've had any contact with my father or either of my sisters. I couldn't even go to the funeral, my mother wouldn't let me! I'm now 13 and I'm obsessing over trying to find my sisters but I cant. I've searched everywhere! Even Facebook for crying out loud! I ask my so called "friends" for advice but its like, they don't tell me anything! I'm so frustrated and since I'm bipolar and I don't take meds for it, it kills me... I hate being me sometimes....
By: rabbit29567
Age: 13-15
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  • Chris557
    Chris557

    Happiness can be found when you've accepted yourself for who you are. Acknowledge your strengths and weaknesses and work on them to make yourself a better person. When you've accepted yourself, you'll be able to improve yourself. Change begins within, so if you want to change something with yourself you could easily do it. An example is an overweight person wanting to be buffed and muscular. That person should accept the fact that he's overweight. Next step is to consider what can be done to get to where he wanna be. So he could try the gym and take proper diet/nutrition. Consult a nutritionist/dietician to help him. Work out. Jog. In time, and with perseverance he could be that buffed/fit/muscular person he wants to be. Something like that. So if you want to improve yourself, acknowledge who you are. Then seek ways to improve yourself. You should accept yourself first, in order for other people to accept you.

    Aug 9, 2011
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