I Hate My Disorder.

If I wasn't so sad anymore and if I didn't have my Social anxiety disorder, I believe that I would like myself. But that stuff is just not going away. So I just wish I wasn't me anymore. I hate being different. I hate being sad. I love the person I am, but just not that stuff that doesn't let me be happy.

minnie22mouse minnie22mouse
18-21, F
3 Responses Oct 29, 2008

I didn't get fucken clean and sober to be fucken absolutely fucken isolated and alone and wanting to check out alot-LATER RED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I completely understand you too. I wish I was dead too. It's frusturating.

I completely understand i've got chronic a.d.h.d. and severe depression and i have terrible social skills and i'm by myself all the time because nobody ever wants to spend time with me even my so-called friends in recovery and i've been hopelessly single almost 5 lonely years alot times i just wish i was fucken dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!