Being Me

As a person I can be 100% certain that I am not the only one that feels the way I do. But why does it always feel like I am? I just really wish there were people out there that could really understand me. 

I'm one of those people that comes across quite confident, enjoys life and going out regularly with friends. But again i'm sure i'm not alone in saying, before and after I go out in the comfort of my own home I can look into the mirror, and just hate what I see. Why does it seem so hard to change my own opinion into positive thoughts about myself for once.

I'm not even that old. It's not as if I have real bad problems in my life. But I feel this is what makes it worse. People look at me and think, what problems should he have. But at the end of the day nobody realises that its the inner persons opinion that counts and you can't help not likely what you see 7 days a week 24 hours a day. 

I'm now sat here thinking that I'm being pathetic at my age even thinking this. But the true fact is I don't want to go ruining my life letting these horrible thoughts take over. I know there are things I can do, but where do I actually find the guts, to just do them and make a change ?


TheMagic TheMagic
18-21, M
8 Responses Jan 1, 2010

I don't think you are pathetic, I actually believe you are courageous for even bring it out in a forum such as this one. You are seeking help, kudos for that. <br />
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The first step in change is being honest with yourself about yourself. <br />
The second step is to make a list of all the changes you want to make.<br />
Choose one negativity at a time and work on it until you are happy with the changes<br />
third, be patient with yourself, because it can be frustrating..<br />
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Always, Always, Always love yourself. It makes life and completing the change much easier.<br />
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I know you can do it, I believe in you!

I can empathise...I have a similar problem where I feel as if I am whining all the time, I don't like this about my life and I don't like that about my life. The truth is that I am better off than most, but that doesn't seem to help very often. I end up feeling ungrateful for all that I have. But no matter how many times I try to list all the things that are good with my life, I can't help but see all the things that I am unhappy with. Whether its something physical, or the fact that I have to support my adult brothers, and to some extent my mother, I have no real privacy and my financial freedom is curtailed by my responsibilities to my family. <br />
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Which means that I am often quite moody, vacillating between depressed and ecstatic... wondering why I couldn't have the happiness I see other ppl with and trying to be appreciative of the good that does exist in my life.

Some have a horrible life got no choice and its wonderful way to do it, healthy and you are still you just living dreams you never got to leaving burdens behind.

I think you should let go. Start fresh go man.

People change over time anyway so how is what you want different I don't think so going to happen anyway, every experience you are changed a bit, bit wiser.

Doesn't hurt in truth its not living a lie its being what you always wanted. A fresh start its easy to do.

For some living a lie is the best thing makes you happy.

Bet you wish you could change all your attributes? Alter your personality? New name? Erase your entire memory? Can be done.