Sometimes.

i really feel this way sometimes. not that what i want to be is popular...i don't think i could stand the pressure of being the girl everyone likes. i would always worry about saying the wrong thing and having all those people leave me. but some days i just wish enough people liked me (solidly) that i could feel worthy of something. i don't know. this is a contradiction because honestly i couldn't give a **** about popularity...lol.....bf.
TheRealMimi TheRealMimi
31-35, F
2 Responses Mar 12, 2010

No it doesn't help at all. Lol. Of course it does!!! Ur words are the voice in my head...what you write is the ethos for my life. I have also had fake friends and i know how unsatisfying that is. I have tried very hard to eliminate toxic ppl in my life for false agendas like popularity...so thanks for validating that for me. I hope it also helps other people who still struggle with this......bf.

Popularity isn't always what the unpopular think it is... I've been on both sides, and I was literally stunned by how many people only hung out with me because I was "popular." Most of them couldn't care less about me as a person, just that I was popular and that they could be more popular if they hung out with me and my "friends." Then, after a lapse in judgment, I found out what everyone really thought of me and how few real friends I had. I found that I actually liked being outside the popular crowd, because the friends that stayed with me, I knew they'd be there for me if I ever got in trouble. All the fake friends....if you don't live up to their expectations, they're gone.<br />
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It's great having lots of people around you, but I'd rather have only a few that I trust rather than a lot that are only with me cuz it benefits them. You don't need a lot of fake "friends" to feel worthy of something. The real friends you have are proof of your worth. Just smile and be proud of who you are!<br />
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I don't know if any of this helps, but it's just my 2 cents :)