Loving This Website - Hating Myself

ok, so i just arrived at liams. i go to the bathroom and make my first cut. it stings cos my tears just got in it. i just looked at myself in the mirror. apparently, says liam, my mind is just making me see myself this way, he's lying. i hate how fat i am. i know ,like, being 6 foot meens i'm gonna be heavy, but i want to be lighter. i 'm ******* 7 stone. how can people look at me wihout laughing at my fatness. alright, so now i'm cutting my stomach with my spar hand. ( one hand fopr the knife, one for the phone) it eases my hunger pains, but not for long. i haven't eaten an actual meal for like 3 months nopw, but i 'm not losing anymore weight. does anyone know how i can ..?
yours dearly, jared
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18-21, M
Dec 14, 2012